Right now, I'm on the bus, traveling on the roads of southwest England. Sometimes, I see a bird.
Yesterday, I held a worm（幼虫） between my fingers for the first time in years, watching its soft pink body moving around.
For these moments, I am thankful for Fingers in the Sparkle Jar. The book is a growing-up memoir (回忆录) by BBC presenter Chris Packham.
As a quiet young boy, Packham only felt happy in the fields and woods around his home. But after he took a young kestrel (茶隼) from its nest, he started a friendship that would teach him what it meant to love and change him forever.
In his rich, beautiful and emotional description, Packham brings to life his childhood, from his bedroom with fox skulls (头骨), birds' eggs and sweaty jam jars, to his wild adventures (探险). His story is about the search for freedom, meaning and acceptance in a world that didn't understand him.
But just as Packham is having fun in forests and streams, he also struggles with Asperger's Syndrome (亚斯伯格综合征).He doesn't like communicating with others. He speaks of a painful loneliness, hypocritical (伪善的) parents and difficulties that cut all ties with his dream world.
In fact, this book helped me get to know my own unusual character, where it might come from, and realize how it affects others. The book showed me that sometimes, the only thing to do is to run off into the woods and be alone. I was silent for a long time, holding that letter. I thought about how much I loved and missed my mother.
